现实和假象

不知道什么时候
何时 开始 出现了你
你每说的一句
我都记进脑里
然后开始幻想 再幻想
他的影子 告诉了我
让我知道 原来这是假像
我 生活在现实里 也存在假像里
幻想不断让我沉迷 着
现实也在呼唤着我
不舍得 因为沉迷了
还能怎么说
选择会困扰我
抛 弃选择
我背叛了我
也淹没自我
最后 最后只能说 抱歉

陌生~

due the to reason repair & upgrade my laptop

roy n me went to lawyat plaza today

we're taking the lift to going up

when the lift door is open

i see a guy which big size body wearing a dark blue shirt

im see his face clearly

its him~my ex !!

im looking at him short while

im step out of the lift

and he is going into the life

our shadow is pass by each other

we know each other

but we doesn't say even a 'hai'

roy is following behind me

im asking roy, do u see him

roy answered me say :''no. what's that, who's tat?''

i tell him :'' i see my ex just now.''

roy is supprise :'ya meh??never see anyone, may b such a big size, cant recognised him.''

after that, we continue our.

what in my mind ...

no memories...

do any memorised?

answer :'no' i couldn't get it.

^;^

i think is a good news for me.

now i realise, i forget the passed in early time.

Hahaha~

what i wish we can be a friend again

forget the pass n get a new friend

i don't care about the passed

because

i know u are the one in my life since we dated~ dear. ^;^

A Saturday

Today i had dated vivien shopping looking for the CNY cloth. I'm never realized my god bro called me and date me for lunch. Therefore i make it date together 3 of us. We have a very funny joke in d car. We non stop kidding even we're shopping. Its funny and relax me. I really like to hang out like in a small gang. Even though just 3 of us, but its enough and easy to communicate each other.. We have our first meal in fast food restaurant which is KFC. We're in shopping mood after full, following by collect my laptop at lawyat and final destination at Pavilion. We' re so good in mood when hear the NY song. We're sing together, and have few move dance together!! Hahahaha~ i love this Feeling~~ Specially me! i really do! once i heard the CNY song... im really HapPy ! ^;^ That is a signal before celebrate the CNY. Since im kids, my mom will buy all the CNY song CD to us during NY... and listen the song once we feel free... the mood to waiting the CNY always be with me~i LOVE CNY !

When u be with me

my mind is keep '0' when u be with me

nothing other else in my mind

only the life with u

we have this few day to stay together...

we had a shopping day....

enjoy our tea in lovely place starbucks,

we have our dinner at cheras, tmn billion steak house

and we have our ending at Look Out Point

we enjoy the view together

listening the song ...

feeling is great enough

even u not talk much to me

but its enough for me

as long as u accompany me

in my days...

headache

my laptop occur a serious problem....
my brother in hometown now....
roy also the same
who i gonna ask for help?
finnaly i ask my friend to help me..
but still could not fix it...
Arh.... ... ... ... ... ...
the life without internet is such boring

Guessing

i saw the wall post. i guessing they might break up.
i not sure about it
but what i can say ......
its might be take time to let u forget her
but who doesn't have those experience?
its sad, a lot of question ( why ? ) ,even u r sacrifice a lot for her etc...
thing always keep changing in our life
asking why for the pass is doesn't work in ur future
but i believe TIME can cure u sooner
i remember my passed...
i do
how sad am i

i was thinking like this during the passed........
u r leave me alone and u start with her no longer after me
tat time, u r not care bout me and find ur happiest with her
u use a sadness of a people to change ur happiest at d same time
i believe one day....
all those thing will be return to u...
how deep u hurt people, u will get it back
thing always do fair
its doesn't matter
it a passed for me

hereby i should say thank for u!
because of u, i learn to be independent!
i learn to be strong!
im doesn't felt that im a loser but a winner
because, i stand up and cheer up myself in my sadness
its hurt, its hard.... but i tries
and nowadays , its become my history.

and because of u,
i meet him. ^;6

一个早上，一个下午

今天起床后，洗刷完毕，我就上网找GSC戏院的电话，我试打过去希望他们能帮我个忙，帮我找找是否我的记忆卡留下在座位了。然后，傻傻我就开着车都去Foodcourt，去那里找一趟。我知道找回的机会是非常的低。可是，我都做最后的尽力去找。不知道，为什么自己那么的粗心。平时的我，这些重要的东西，我都会好好的收好。既然会弄掉了，平时我最躁急的东西. 真的很好笑！当我弄不见了。我告诉你的时候，我知道你也一样不开心。我在电话听到你的声音。。。。。 我好心酸。

或许像朋友说的吧。。“你最近受了什么刺激？” 连朋友都觉得奇怪，为什么最近我那么粗口？他们一直都不问我。可是，就连一个少见面交谈的朋友都对我这么说的时候。他叫醒了我的脑袋！为什么这问题会出自在我身上呢？？我不知道为什么。我还在他面前否认，我用借口去埋没一切。我不想知道，不想去想。就听着歌，赖在床上。。。。睡着了。

粗心大意

i hang out with friend
i facing the problem of my memory card
i formatted it and need to recovery the picture inside
i asking my friend do it for me
i bring the memory card going out today
the picture is recovered
tot to keep back the memory card into camera
after had my bath when i was home
i searching the card in my bag
i couldn't find it ....
!@#$%^&*()_+!@#!$$#^%$&^%*
i guess its put some where else....
im keep finding it...
!@#$%^&*!@$#!@$
its not inside my Bag!!!
Shit! i Lost my slr camera memory card....
Arhh......sad n moody.
:< how come today so careless ????
what happen today??
and
my friend is asking me...
why im so rude???
my mind is suddenly wake up!!!!
yes! what happen to me actually???
there is no answer to myself too...

What is happening to myself ?????

!@#$%^&*()_+

started get into confuse
thinking what in my mind
but i'm couldn't get it

started lost the control
its telling cant be happen
but im unable to control it

started to thinking of
its should not be
but it out of control

started to waiting
its no reason why doing so
but im keep going on

started to trying
its impossible
but still trying

started to have that life
its relax
but lost of something

started to have a changed
its a good tried
but it might not the result as u though

started to realised its a fake imagination
its a kind of day dream
but still imagine of it.

token

started to believe and trust
its might a fool on it
but in blur mode to believe it

no confidence to take such risk
so, still step on it and never move.

=Done=

a Digi Roadshow at 1Utama had get done
i had spent 5 fays with digi promoter from 30dec-3jan 2010
stand for 5 days.
my leg is tired and extremely sleepy
but once im home....
on my laptop
and facing with my laptop
all the tired feeling is leave me away...
hehe

不知如何说起好

今天。。。
哎。。。
我知道你是想为了她的安全
才带她一起回
但是，你完全没有交代好
一切的行中，情况。。
真的没有责任感。
我的家人问起。。。
我真的很矛盾。。。
除了生气，骂你一顿
我真的不知还有什么好说！
虽然，小事一幢。
即使，你安排妥当，一旦问题出现
一切的美意都会被踏到0%
然后，就会有指责！

凌晨快一点了
现在妹妹还在回家的路途中。。。