A Lie proof a Lie happen

a wonderful lie
but u never realise i will know it
dont know why u trying to hide it to anyone
said that u went to jb but u r in malacca actually
no body know the reason unless urself...
1st, u lie.... said 'im in jb la... doing my stuff...etc..after busy all gonna back bentong for tournament preparation' (while u going to relax and holiday)
2nd, i call n ask u.. i ask why u lie ' u keep non stop reply ( who tell u ..), u sound like u got no wrong and u r in ur right way to doing it.
i already know the fact
but u still lie on me...
here is the test for u whether u honest to me or not..
what is the point here is u hide all this thing...
u know it...
yes... even i found out the right answer
in the phone u still not admit it and scold me back is my problem
and im not rational...
u making lie to everyone... who the problem one?
may b u tot im a irrational n sensitive person
so u have to do it...
u r wrong....
who is not open heart and who always say to me 'be urself'
and who doesn't do it?
what is in my mind is
u told me u tight with money after back from jb...
so i can help on it pay the bill....just i bliv u and never think u betray me..
never think other and just bliv u...
who is sensitive think of my part? and make lie?
as a friend, i beyond power to know it too.
what desmond let me know...u r in malaca...
im not checking with desmond...
just i found both of us also will sensitive with love stuff
and we share our thing...
i stupid until try to find other reason why u making lie to me
u might dont wan me get hurt or sensitive on it..
last time i still believe what u does is right n honest to me..
after this case... what u does is urself kill the trust from me..
like what im doing, and make u lost feeling n no confidence to get me back..
but.. also can say.. u hide it from me get u new start life with others.
before thing happen, tell sincerely... thing wont so complicate
after happen, whatever u explain people also will judge on it
whether it is right or not...
i hate people making lie on me
if there is nothing... privacy does important to u?
yes or no may b...
5 and half year i trust u honest to me...even after break i still
strongly believe u never lie on me or betray me...
the trust n believe its gone when
i gave u the chance tell me..
where did u went? jb or malacca.
There is the full stop there.
if u really know me well... i will gave u chance to explain every time ....
don't u found it.
is time to me wake up
from my mouth , i also say the bad on u.. blame on u... say not believe u...
but u never know how strong my heart believe on u...
cos is not important admit from mouth to u, like u say its feeling in heart..
when u ask me..... my heart always have the very first answer say 'yes, r u my mr right'
im might not good in express some time...
but what is the real answer.... u wont give me..even urself u dont know about it
but what i can say is... if u request... i will gave whatever u wan..
whatever u hope...
i dont wan let u know the answer, rather i hurt myself to protect u
scarified it.... if worth for u to exchange ur happy... i can do it.
i can scarified for u..
whether i show the evidence or not..
i know u r not believe me anymore... ( like u told )
this action might u felt not rational too...
but when u so deep love with some one...
thing before happen...before u propose
i do trust u and never worry about our love n relationship...
but ur action and without explain to me
cause me getting lost the trust on u...
in ur mind, u always keep thinking of this 'if u know me, no need i explain'
i know u r this type of person....
u cause me getting lost to trust on u
and also from me cause u confuse the love of us..
yes, i not good in expression..
i need to improve it.ya i have to do it.
i never say the truth to u from my heart...
how good u r...
sorry that i never let u know.
and u also not interesting to know now.
WHAT IS THE TRUTH IN MY HEART WHEN BE WITH U
i found it few month ago...
but i in work hard try to let u know..
learn to express to u
but...
no more chance now
what a regret that i wish to do is...
i never show a real me to u.never tell u all the truth
when with u, i keep confuse with u the feeling i have
tat my big regret.
but i should thank u... thank u propose to break
this decision make me know u r my mr right n i found it
but i had only keep in heart n not to express to u anymore.
Thanks~ even we not stay together all the time for few year
but u let me know how deep i trust on u after u propose to break
yeah.. i sense u like u do...