真的爱你

你真的是那个我爱的人
我爱你的个性
你给我健康的生活警惕
你叫我好好善用时间
你要我好好的学习
你陪我 教会我运动，游泳
或许你不觉得 可是我却很开心
那温柔的心 都常在心理了
说不出来 也表达不出来
到了今天 更不用说了
说了也没用了
因为你的心都不在有我了
你都把我也忘了
我是你的过去式
感觉也过去了
爱也没了
我也学会慢慢的放开点了。。。
把爱守着，收者就好了。
不要说出来。不去拥有，就不会失去 。
那么就不会痛苦了。
都在心里说着
‘依然爱着你’就够了。

奇怪的事情发生了

两个月前。。第一次遇见会阿府的时候
那感觉回来了
第一眼在家楼下见到他。。。从抱着他哭 （为了roy的离开而哭）
每见到他一次
感觉上就会舒服得多了
好象以前那样。。。
可是我告诉自己
不是那回事。。也许我难过了
朋友的陪伴而残生错觉吧。。。。
虽然他是我想要的那类型。。可是
一个适合的，一个爱的。。
这两天 和他出去回来后
不晓得为什么 很自然梦起他。。。
那舒服的感觉
他的陪伴下 我都很舒服。。。
想和他谈天。。
即使半夜了。。。第一个想起他，找他诉说心事。。
昨晚看见他很想就是抱着他一下。。
可是自己对自己说
不好这样 不能这样的
不能这个时候 发生这回事
会伤害自己 也会伤害朋友

像august 3 2009的blog一样。。。。
那感觉。。。就是想见到他。。和他谈。。
像那email一样。。。。
我都控制着自己 对着他。。。
不要想哦。。。。 告诉自己或许自己的错觉。。
朋友就是朋友。。。不能伤害身边的朋友。。。
不能选者身边的朋友。。

结束吧

既然你开口说了全部的事情
你也承认了
你的心去了 她那里
我等到你开口说了
真的 假的
分不了了
你太多的大话
我完全不认识你了
但是 你为了她而欺骗我
都是一厢情愿 以为你不会那么容易爱上别人
这一刻。。。
你的话。。。在电话里。。
说的一切 我不知道了
傻傻的我 心理相信你不会对不起我
不会喜欢别人
可是，你的话让我觉得
我错了
我真的错了
虽然我不停的怀疑你
但是 心里一直信你不会在爱情背叛我
你的话 让我知道我笨了
你都说了
你不会为了我 放弃拍球
可是你可以为了她放弃拍球
这句话。。。。。
让我痛如生死。。
希望 你和她会快乐吧
我祝福你 祝你们会快乐
原本想着牺牲自己的爱情 去成全你完成你心愿是值得的
但是，最后变成成全了你和她 而让你放弃了拍球
我看错了。。。一直喜欢拍球的你
真的可以为了她 从她的出现以后 放弃了
你能做到完全不再 碰拍球
我失败了。。原来我给你的支持 的方式 。。。
给你做会自己。。去为拍球而活却。。让你。。
既然她的一句话 你那么的听从
你可以为了她 这样对我
我 不想看到你 不想听见你的声音
希望 这些话发自你的内心 不再说谎
那么。。。我会选择放弃你了。
慢慢的忘记你。

Personality plus

i just done the personality plus test.
what is the result i get is Melancholy.
same as i read from the book...
the result thati get ..
the higest of the rate is the chorelic
and the following is the sanguine
and the last one is the phlegmatic....
i having the solution part now...
what i hope so is... i can get my personality well
since break up with roy...
what is in my mind just so confusing
i dont kknow whether what is right n wrong
or i cant make those decision after this case
i got no ideal whether is influence from other or roy
what i get some time i was think it is correct... but he doesnt agree with me
is that 2 difference people thinking cause it?
what all people say that....when 2 people date together
also have to torelate then only can further go...
.....!@#%^&^*&(
at this moment.... should i do those test...?
i dont think so..
because sometime i will based on the situation with roy consider with the answer
and sometime i wan consider the answer when i was alone.
blur blur...hehehe...
i guess... i should do after this calm down moment is much more better
sincerely....
i was totally lost my control n my mind to thinking this recently...
i hope i can rest down my mind and finish up all my thing and going my working life....
to forget him as well...
3 month to go....
could be the time past me faster?
hopefully...

I found

ya... few day had think
i do i found myself
i was a person who like to collect the memories
i wish to collect all my memories...
in image or video etc
what i wish to do
i wish to help people collect their memories as well
so far...
last time i was interesting in drawing wedding dress
i wish to study in wedding fashion
but i know i couldn't get it in real life
after that... i bought a new slr camera
i wish to capture all my memories
in a nice picture
when im old later...
that my memories....
i can strong remember the memories of my life
every moment, every second
even the past, u ask from me
i always can remember well
now, 3 month to go final my degree
in real life,what u study, u might not get that job...
i wish to do what i wan...
by the way...'wedding' was my big concept
2 year ago..
i wish to after final study...
work for father
then ask help to open a wedding shop....
i know its harder to do it...
i wish i can be a wedding planner as well now....
dont know why...
when 'wedding' this word come out in my mind....
my heart is happy...
when attend people wedding...
i was very happy ..
yes i do i love wedding party
i love the seconds ...capture all the the nervous n happy moment...
yes.... after 2 years,
my heart still wish to do this...
i wish after im graduate... i can slowly move on it...
that my dream n interesting and can life with it all the time
can i do it...
my future will tell me...
^;^ ya.... wait for it. no body know unless my best friend, soo wei.
hehe... only she know it.

五年半的感情
唱一首的生日歌
听一首我想唱的歌
突然让你痛苦流泪
也许你辛苦了
也许你累了
也许你忙了
也许被避紧了
也许你想休息了
也许你把我忘了
也许讨厌我了
也许你不想再见我了
也许你不知所措了
所以选者停顿下来。。。。。。
很多很多的事。。。
很多很多的压力
很多很多的忧郁了
很多很多的负担
很多很多不够用的时间
想起的都会 是不开心的
我知道这段时间 你想静了
或许过一段时间
安顿了。。。休息够了
你想通了
你明白了 你清楚了
你说放开了。。。你会开心
你说放开了。。。你完全不会在意
你说放开了。。。你会另有相观
你没放得开。。所以你会跟着我的情绪走
听见我的声音 你会回想起最近不开心的事
看见我的样子 你会尴尬不敢看着我的眼神
真的放得开 你不会因为我 而失控 而生气
放得开，你不会记住我的坏 只会想起我给你美好的回忆
真正抛开所有的 介怀。。。
你才能 和我谈天
因为你在逃避
说好的放开。。。所以你内心只会记得我的不好 你才能忘记我
说好的放开。。。你不问起我才能 让我消失无影无踪
你矛盾而怀疑了
你矛盾而察觉了
对的可能是错的
错的可能是对的
我放开了。。。所以我忘记你的不好
我放开了。。。我不记得你做错什么
我只觉着自己不够好。。只想做好些。。。
当我放开你，你却抓紧我
当你放我走，我却抓紧你
我们错过了这个时间

放掉那个李添来 去找另一个的你
放掉那个卢雪莉 去看另一个的我

藏起来了

原来 我真的把自己藏起来了
原本感情丰富 的我
不知道何时 我把它藏起来了
最近。。。放松了自己后
才发觉到。。。原来原本的我。。。
藏起来了 。。。
他看不见了原本的我了
所以感情淡了
不知道为什么
心里总是觉得
他还有我。。。
我都感觉到。。。
只是 我们都把大家藏了起来
关在心里面
大家都不出声
因为 大家都不知道
下一步 该怎么走
如果有如果
我希望 可以重来
如果有如果
我希望 我们可以换个方式再爱
如果有如果
我希望忘掉以前的一切

A Lie proof a Lie happen

a wonderful lie
but u never realise i will know it
dont know why u trying to hide it to anyone
said that u went to jb but u r in malacca actually
no body know the reason unless urself...
1st, u lie.... said 'im in jb la... doing my stuff...etc..after busy all gonna back bentong for tournament preparation' (while u going to relax and holiday)
2nd, i call n ask u.. i ask why u lie ' u keep non stop reply ( who tell u ..), u sound like u got no wrong and u r in ur right way to doing it.
i already know the fact
but u still lie on me...
here is the test for u whether u honest to me or not..
what is the point here is u hide all this thing...
u know it...
yes... even i found out the right answer
in the phone u still not admit it and scold me back is my problem
and im not rational...
u making lie to everyone... who the problem one?
may b u tot im a irrational n sensitive person
so u have to do it...
u r wrong....
who is not open heart and who always say to me 'be urself'
and who doesn't do it?
what is in my mind is
u told me u tight with money after back from jb...
so i can help on it pay the bill....just i bliv u and never think u betray me..
never think other and just bliv u...
who is sensitive think of my part? and make lie?
as a friend, i beyond power to know it too.
what desmond let me know...u r in malaca...
im not checking with desmond...
just i found both of us also will sensitive with love stuff
and we share our thing...
i stupid until try to find other reason why u making lie to me
u might dont wan me get hurt or sensitive on it..
last time i still believe what u does is right n honest to me..
after this case... what u does is urself kill the trust from me..
like what im doing, and make u lost feeling n no confidence to get me back..
but.. also can say.. u hide it from me get u new start life with others.
before thing happen, tell sincerely... thing wont so complicate
after happen, whatever u explain people also will judge on it
whether it is right or not...
i hate people making lie on me
if there is nothing... privacy does important to u?
yes or no may b...
5 and half year i trust u honest to me...even after break i still
strongly believe u never lie on me or betray me...
the trust n believe its gone when
i gave u the chance tell me..
where did u went? jb or malacca.
There is the full stop there.
if u really know me well... i will gave u chance to explain every time ....
don't u found it.
is time to me wake up
from my mouth , i also say the bad on u.. blame on u... say not believe u...
but u never know how strong my heart believe on u...
cos is not important admit from mouth to u, like u say its feeling in heart..
when u ask me..... my heart always have the very first answer say 'yes, r u my mr right'
im might not good in express some time...
but what is the real answer.... u wont give me..even urself u dont know about it
but what i can say is... if u request... i will gave whatever u wan..
whatever u hope...
i dont wan let u know the answer, rather i hurt myself to protect u
scarified it.... if worth for u to exchange ur happy... i can do it.
i can scarified for u..
whether i show the evidence or not..
i know u r not believe me anymore... ( like u told )
this action might u felt not rational too...
but when u so deep love with some one...
thing before happen...before u propose
i do trust u and never worry about our love n relationship...
but ur action and without explain to me
cause me getting lost the trust on u...
in ur mind, u always keep thinking of this 'if u know me, no need i explain'
i know u r this type of person....
u cause me getting lost to trust on u
and also from me cause u confuse the love of us..
yes, i not good in expression..
i need to improve it.ya i have to do it.
i never say the truth to u from my heart...
how good u r...
sorry that i never let u know.
and u also not interesting to know now.
WHAT IS THE TRUTH IN MY HEART WHEN BE WITH U
i found it few month ago...
but i in work hard try to let u know..
learn to express to u
but...
no more chance now
what a regret that i wish to do is...
i never show a real me to u.never tell u all the truth
when with u, i keep confuse with u the feeling i have
tat my big regret.
but i should thank u... thank u propose to break
this decision make me know u r my mr right n i found it
but i had only keep in heart n not to express to u anymore.
Thanks~ even we not stay together all the time for few year
but u let me know how deep i trust on u after u propose to break
yeah.. i sense u like u do...

Gone

During the chatting, what is the story i found is he didnt honest to me.
during utm, he also doing this sms with his coursemate (siew theng) with sweet word just his coursemate reject him. what is the real story... does it happened, does roy really have any feel with her...wan to tackle her.. only himself know...even i ask now, whether he admit or not...is not the point now...i try to get the answer form his mouth.. but he refuse to give me a real answer.... i found from his friend... i doing this way... what for?
make my heart die and die and die for him and dont even keep any hope anymore.
me heart really gone...
6 years, i tot i read ur mind well... so much thing happened... i confusing do i still really read ur mind. might yes,and may b not.
Gone. whatever had just gone suddenly. is time to wake up and not to wait anymore.

A night of city view

i take a ride of city view jus now..there is many car keep moving on the road..
i slow down d car because some place attracting me keep my eye on it..
some car move fast, some move slow; some get d right direction and some get a wrong direction,some reach their direction on time but some are not.its doesnt mean u late, just u slow down and take a rest to continue ur journey.

3! 2! 1!

一个月的限期
是时候了。。。
也该够了。。。
想累了。。。
也累坏了。。
精神也差了。。
问题都尽量的消逝了。。。
也结束了。。
可不可以开始也不晓得了
这个时候 也没答案了。。
不是我不明白
而是你真的 不大会表白
你把意思都兜很大个圈来走。。。
当初说好的是
想考验下 我们的感情 做朋友
很好的朋友。。是朋友了。。还说‘不要真的避到我说分手’
接着，‘我自以为你要时间去习惯’。。
然后，却又说‘没感情’
最后的最后又说 什么最后的决定 ‘真的分开’
其实逃避的人 是你
因为你都不知道答案
所以你逃避。。。。回答我
有时想多的 不但是我 而还有你
脱我的人是你 不是我拖你
因为话说不清楚的是你

停了。停了。
明天，以后，都不晓得了。
虽然是可惜。。
不过你让我觉得 你是个不想和我共难的人
这多年 多辛苦的等，维护我们的爱情，坚持。。。
我都挨过来，给你信心，放心我对你专一。。。
你却可以在短时间内。。 付出得而得不到我给你的感觉而放弃。。
所，没有感情了。。这句话，就明显的说
你这段时间很努力付出，可是好像对方都不满意。。
自己努力过都没有了。。。就算吧。。
可是这件事。。。
我却做了很多年，把你带大。。
你说你扶着我走。。。
可是有很多时候 也是我扶着你走的
你扶着我走，你觉得我看不见，不察觉
我扶着你走的时候 其实你也看不见 也不察觉
爱情原本就是双方面 的扶持，保护，维持，生活，容纳和付出
可是你却把它分开来说。。。

信，不信？

我的心在痛
你真的没有骗我吗？
你真的没有对她人好吗？
为什么问到的时候
都不承认？
你要我信你
可是你却 不解释
不解释不代表 什么
可是 对方就会乱想
你让我 头大了。。。
让我更 想知道你在想什么

never think the past

he had take my position like i do last time ( more care )
and i had took his position like he does last time ( more fully use time for myself)
what he is does is caring me much more better than last time
what i does is less to caring him
for the previous year..
but for him...
just a short period he cant handle it
and decide to get the faster way totally settle it
for the past year...
i will spread it out and tell him the problem
but,
as a guy
always tot is not necessary to expressed and keep in heart
so...
when time pass day after after
and when the care for me never found have response
whatever he tried
he felt is better n more than anything
but never get any return
so ...
after a short period..
he found feeling had gone...
but what a guy think is...
settle the problem rather than suffer to think how to built up
and keep on the relationship...
so, finally will proposed to break
and give any excuse

but for a girl
will try to something which can gain back the feeling each others
and wish to hold each other hand until the end

actually...
both parties had forget the principle
becos its date too long
and both parties tot they know each other very well
and not necessary to talk n tell what is the feeling inside the heart
when keep on heart all the time
thing getting change
and might less some excited
to keep on the memory

therefore when the second
one of the parties say break...
its from many ways cause it
not only one side
if only a small case
sure can settle it nicely

when both parties just keep it and not to tell
and not to talk about the problem together
handle it
the ending will done all

when ending
both parties will get hurt
but either one will hurt more
what a people always does is
make sure u can make another one DIE his/her heart in one time
get ready all the reason n kill the crispy
so, from this way..
DIE for ONCE will more easy to stand up back
if let say used nicely to he/she...
bring the hope to DIE...
will more suffer to him/her
so, what this following step will do is
try to make herself/himself as a very useless n hated person to those who proposed
make sure can killed until the heart die
and totally end with the hope together
bcos the way he/she tot to treat him better is suffer he/she
tat also what people mean for
after proposed to break
cant be friend anymore
bcos... the memory will follow u...
once keep on it... its hard to forget it
unless both of them can be really open heart to accept all the sadness n hurt
but, in real world... not so many people can do it

16 天

去年的生日
我在医院过
虽然 在医院陪妈妈
但是 我永远都不会忘记
亲爱的 特地赶来找我
陪我一起过生日
虽然是很简单 的庆祝
但是我却很开心
因为 我都和心爱的人一起过
真的很开心
晚上。。。 听着老公仔说
‘gal,我真的很想你'
心里更是开心无比
因为你都很少 把话说出口
我们还在车里过了一个特别的晚上。。
虽然你赶回去做工
但是 你的眼神让我知道
你会在想我。。心会陪着我的。。
很期待的这一年
可以和你过一个最特别的旅行生日日记。。。
期待了很久 。。很久。。。

机会

原来爱情时间不简单的事
除了感觉，习惯还有责任。。或是还会牵连很多的事情
突然间。。。
失去以后我才知道
一直不珍惜的 不是你
是我 我付出的少少却要回报多多
日子久了 甚至忽略了你的感受
感情没有对和错
爱情本来就是要靠两个人来维持的
单方面的付出 就会是输家
后悔我们都没有好好 珍惜过有的机会
我们还能有下一次的机会吗
有人说 一生只爱一个就够了
也有人说 给个机会去爱别的
看开点 自己就会好过
但是 其实当你真的爱上了一个人
心里真的只能容纳对方一个罢了
不管怎样 你的心都只有对方罢了
所以才能长久。
错过了，我们还可以用另一个方式
重来吗？
我们还有机会吗？
机会难逢 重新来过会更好吧。。

a shopping night

this afternoon i receive a call
and ask me go to puchong have dinner with them
suki is call me too
so i went there at evening
and we have dinner together
and shopping in IOI mall after dinner
im very happy with it..
even u are not with me...
but weird a bit
we just friend now
but ur family treat me more better...
im happy... but difference status with u...
im confusing...
i wish we can be continue...
cos my heart only u.
but very sorry i wake up u just now..
the account show deleted u in my list...
and found out a new account been created
so i call u and ask u
i wake up u and make u angry..
very sorry dear... sorry dear.
i really not to mean that.
i regret what i had done this 3 weeks.
sorry sorry n i beg to forget it for that 3 weeks.
i beg u
i wish we can be restart our relationship again....
bcos i just love u.

为球而活

为了拍球 放弃爱情
不知道该说 有理想 还是天真
5th feb 2005 - 12 Aug 2010
五年半的感情
都比不上 两个月和拍球的突然间的感情
我觉得我看错了人
我太低估了你
原来你的毅力是那么的强
可以放弃 一条小生命
什么 什么都不理
什么 什么都不管
我尽了 我的能力去做
我尽了 我的努力去挽回
最后 最后
是你口中说的 即时是条小生命
你依然会 为拍球而活
我 没有把事实告诉你
都不肯真真的告诉你
我忍无可忍了
不是我要放弃
是你要我放弃的
你逼我放弃的
有些事 是双方面的 保护和坚持
既然我需要的基本 满足不了
惟有放弃

人心肉做，会开心；伤心；甚至痛。因为有感情。
没有感情或残忍的人，我觉得是冷血动物，几乎活死人也没分别。瞬间为了拍球而活的人，在两个小时内决定把快五年半的爱情和感情完全放弃逃入拍球。真的不知天真？傻？还是有毅力。现实的生活和梦想是两回事。
实际点吧

火

昨天狠狠的嘛了你一顿
心里舒服了
怎么呢？
哄了你两个星期
都不够你斗咧
昨天的一通电话
我信你 我信你做到的
虽然 平时吵架 我都说你不够好 不够好
可是 你知道吗 其实你对我很好
只不过 有些话 真的不能赞你的
因为你会 嚣张
所以哦。。。。 哈哈。。。
骂你的时候 要说难听的话
激起你 那你才会对我好
虽然你暂时放下了我
可是 我知道你还有我的
只不过 分量不多。。。还是排球重要
不知道为什么 虽然知道日子难过 但是还会选择和你过
爱就是爱 没得解析
像你一样 拍球就拍球。。
心中的火 当然肯定不会灭
你让我痛苦如死
假如 我牺牲了这次的感情 你好好的去做你的事 就做吧

厌倦和烦恼

原来 我的关心让你觉得烦和厌倦
我都不清楚了
是你真的 忙得不可开交
还是 真的因为我的追名电话的讯息
然你觉得很烦
我很怕 我的烦让你觉得我很害怕
我不要
我只想我们 可以好起来
我担心你会忙到忘了我
所以 来电和讯息都不停不停的
听见你大声 地说‘说完了吗？ 你不挂电话，我挂.’
我真的 心痛
不知道我惹你 生气了 还是 你忙的很烦恼
对不起。 可是 我真的不想就这样没有了我们的感情
你平时都不会那样对我的
你的脾气很好的
是我弄你生气了？
还是你有很大的工作压力？
听者你说 你都给了机会我。。
我吓呆了。。。为什么呢？
为什么 好像事情变得是我的错？
你先提出的。。。我错在那里？？
很乱了。。。你都搞复杂了我。

被心爱的人伤害
心是真的会很痛
痛的时候 没人感觉到
唯有自己 的一个人在痛
我在伤心的时候 你却和你的同事在笑
我不能放开
是因为 心爱的东西 失去了
那天开始 你不再问起 任何有关我的东西
你说会关心我 可是 你就正在伤害我
你没有理会我的感受
我都在忍受 着那痛苦 的听你说
看见那些video，你在笑。。。
我都在 伤心
为了你心痛
为什么你就是抛弃了我。。
那么残忍的抛弃了我。。
可是 我很笨的 在等 在等
等我的爱 回来
关心我的爱 回来保护我 爱我

last few days...
irrational cause me done so much thing to make u hate on me...
i just sitting down n think probably...
ya, i should not do that....
its break all my hope n my way...
i regret it.

很辛苦

我还在乎他
看见他们去camp的照片
我乱想了
为什么她叫你陪她去
你就去？
真的对我没感觉了吗？
为什么？
你知道我有多痛吗
你告诉我的时候
我的心都很痛
我多在户你
你却 对我那么恨心
我的心 一刀一刀的被你割开了。。。
很痛。。。。:.(很痛。。。
你真的变了！！！
自从认识她以后
你都变了
你可以把我们的感情被给身边的东西受 影响了
我真的很痛。。。。很辛苦。。辛苦。。。

Changed for it

u change our relationship status to open relationship...
izit u wan me get other better offer?
izit u wish some one can treat me better and give me the happiness?
that not i wan...
i wan wish to date with u
i wonder why u doing so
i wonder why u can put me aside for volleyball
do u really still loving me?
do u really still loving me?
yes or no?
or u take the yes exchange to volleyball?
or u say no represent u r not loving me?
u told me u love the feeling stay with me
make u comfortable... few days ago
but u say no feeling on me yesterday once starting with ur volleyball life
why? u hide ur love from me?
or u really think im the one who torture u to life with volleyball?
where is roy?
where is roy?
where is my lovely roy??
what he is thinking now
could some one tell me?
nothing i care now.... unless i wan to know whether u still love me or not..
everyday i cant sleep well....
the day lost a boyfriend... and hv a very good friend...
im im im... lost my direction
the only one my spirit support... gone suddenly
i lost focusing...
will u be back to me?
i wish to wait u come back to me again
i dont know why
may b u laugh me stupid
but i just know
no matter how bad u treat me
no matter how good u treat me
no matter how...
i just love u
JUST LOVE U.
U R the only ONE FOR ME in MY LIFE
same as ur volleyball for u.
could u consider why i so sad now?
how will u be once day u lost the volleyball??
that y feeling now
that my painful now
that my hurt now.
how come i focus on study in this moment
if, it is u...
could u imagine how u gonna be?
will u crazy once u lost ur volleyball?
answer yes.
as i doing so now...
im going crazy once i lost u in my life.

心烦

我觉得你很心烦
你好像知道自己要什么
但是 又好像要的方向 走错了
你说的话 有时很伤我
可是有时 却很关心我
现在 你放下了 男朋友的身份 这个负担
你告诉我说 你很轻松
不用烦
我不明白。。。
是感情没了 你要从新再找回来
还是 感情淡了 想些新鲜感
一时说 好像忙到没时间 想我
一时说 好像把感情放下了
一谈到这个话题 你每次都逃避
你搞到我很乱
一时说的是有机会 再在一起
一时说的是重新开始
我很讨厌。。。这个没肯定的答案
没有说好分手这个字，做很好的朋友，不要负担，不要担心我，但是会关心我。
哇~~~ 我的天阿，是我听不懂，还是你说不清楚？
为什么突然间变得 将乱 将复杂？
dear,你还好吗？ 你都清醒吗？

心痛

心痛。。
心痛。。。
我爱的 都不理我了
那种不理我 的感受很难过
为什么 人心肉做？
会开心 会痛
我不知道
在这一刻 我只想让你知道
你抢走了给着我的幸福和快乐
我恨你 都因为 我爱你
没有对与错 没有值不值得
我还在等你

只想着你

很怕失去你的感觉
没有了你
没有了 suki
没有了 你的家人的温暖
突然间 没有了很多东西
我知道你去了campaign
这些活动 一定很忙 很想听到你的声音
很想 知道你怎么样了
很想抱着你
这几天的难过 流了很多的眼泪
心痛为什么 你会突然间对我那么残忍
心痛为什么 你突然间可以对我那么冷淡
心痛为什么 你突然间对我说话的语气那么重
可是 我都没关系 因为心里面就只有你
不管怎么样 我都会陪着你 不会放弃
很想帮你走上正路
希望有一天 你会知道我的苦心
流出来的泪水 希望能换给你快乐
在你忙的时候， 你笑的时候，可能我在哭啼
有时候 我真的很讨厌你 你只为自己快乐 不体会别人的感受
要家人担心，要我担心。
当每个人都在担心你的时候
你却自己一个人在快乐，做你自己要的东西
排球。。排球。。还是排球。。
因为排球你选者放弃我们的感情
我。。。真的很心痛
原本好好的你
突然间 变成这样。。。看见你的变，真的心痛和难过。
看会以前你给我的email....
都写我比你的排球重要
看见我，对着我，和我一起的时间 都很开心
排球只是你的一部分
而我是你的全部
你都这么说的
可是 你现在 为了排球走火入魔
我该怎么 帮你
你是我的唯一 我不想你跌倒
我不想你痛
我只想保护你。
老公仔。。没有你的日子。。没有你的关心。。。没有你的声音。。没有你温暖的心陪着我
我真的很伤心。。。
可是我很笨。。。 我一直都在等
每分每秒 都等你打电话给我
每分每秒 都等你回到我的身边
没有任何的理由
只因为 心里有你对我的一段感情 会让我告诉你说
我最爱的是你~

Confusing

he say
need more time to spent on volleyball, just put me aside
then,
we're very good good friend
then,
back to basically start as a friend and see whether what we need actually
then,
im not ready to start

i getting confusing
what is friend
when work as a friend and try to care u
u say, friend no need ask so much thing. its seem like im reporting
but i work it as normal
u r overthinking of me.. u r sensitive of something

i worry once day
u r crazy with volleyball until lost urself
i not to see u hurt
i worries about u...
try to know more about u
but u reject what i do, ur felt is spy on u, make u 'fan gam'
i keep it in heart, no matter u scold me or said some word to hurt me
i just wish to get u back
read through all ur email...
one of the email u wrote...
''gal, eventhough i like volleybal, but i love u much more... like to shopping with u, like to sweet with u, like to stick with u.......i just like it, but i love u most''
but now, i looking at u
u can withdrawal our love to exchange with a volleyball
r u crazy with volleyball
do u know
ur mom had worry u for whole week
ur mom had worry until cant sleep well
ur mom had worry until awake early morning at 4am
ur mom had worry u until no appetite to eat
ur mom is waiting ur call
ur mom is waiting u home
even me also trying call ur mom see how she is..
worry she is not feeling well
but what are doing just for ur own thing, just care for volleyball
and just volleyball
ur mom ask u going home, but u went to campaign..
where is the roy i recognized last time
he is love his family
and care his family more than me
why suddenly change to another person
ur life only see the volleyball
we all trying to advise u not to do the associate
but , u r not rational and just work it up on ur own way
without consider the people around u
are worries u, scare u fall down
ur family.... and me
the one i loved for so long
i really not to see u get hurt
i dont wan u totally lost ur confidence once day
when u will wake up??
when u will be mature??
u scolding me not perform well now because of u
but u....
exactly doing the same thing
u r dreaming there and keep dreaming and not to wake up
how can i help u?
how i wake up u?
worthy to u scarified ur family and our relationship just for volleyball?
if u say yes.
nothing i can comment
since everyone is helping u now,
but u still standing strong at ur position and keep moving to a non u-turn way
what i can say...
i let u go....
once u fall down
and u will found what the feeling of fallen down
its hard to built up ur confidence and urself once u lost it
i tried it before
i dont wan u be like me
that y i wish to protect u now, to push down ur dreaming
i know i failed
so....
from time being
u will know why im doing so,why ur family doing so
why we all not support u to do.
is not u dont have the ability to do u
is not because u stupid
just in the real world and fact
its impossible to do it with only ur ability.
i wish u can be back one day.
i will be with u when u needs me.
because ...
I LOVE U,DEAR ROY.

冷之夜

谈了通电话
听见你累累的声音
原来 远处看不到你
真的不晓得
原来 你忙得喘不过气来
连休息 的时间也很少
我都知道了 我会好好的陪着你
虽然看见你脾气 忙起来是很臭
不过 觉得好帅一下
今晚特别的冷，披上冷衣，长裤和棉被还很冷到抖起来。
可是，有你的飞鸽传吻和抱抱温暖我的心。^;^ hahahahaha..^;^^;^
虽然是在电话旁边
可是 我都感受到那 甜蜜的感觉
^;^

第一通电话

this u ur first call that u call me after few days
its about 520pm
from the phone
ur sound like very suffer
so many thing to think
and
so many thing to worry
make u cant breath that i feel
i know u suffer with volleyball
ur feeling is angry, worry, unhappy, suffer
long time not listen ur laughing voice
why make urself so suffer?
settle down ur thing one by one
carry on ur thing one by one
dont take the burden so much in once time
if u cant effort it
ur working life make u cant take rest n tide up there
2 thing ...
one is time and one is money
u r very suffer this both thing this moment
u volunteer to spent all ur salary to volleyball
from ur voice, even not chat long
but i can feel it
u try to use a very bad bad voice to kick me out of u
u not mean to do that in ur heart
but u force urself to do it
why?
when i heard ur voice in ur working hours
ur voice show me... u hv a lot of thing to handle
when u back to hostel
ur voice let me know u r relax abit and not feel carrying ur burden
in front of ur friend or colleague
u might laugh happily
but do u really happy? laugh from ur heart
or may be yes and just angry when face to me
may b i make u hate on me
but why u do so?
as a bf, u wont be like that
as a friend, u wont be like that too
i found, u make me lost my self
but i have my friend helping me to stand up
and get back myself
but
bcos of this reason too
i found that u getting lost ur self too
u questionnaire me where the real sally gone?
where is the roy that i knew last time?
suddenly change to another person immediately

爱会哭； 爱会笑

什么是爱 爱是什么
这样东西 没有人可以正真理解
我自己也不确定
有人说 爱要等 爱要争取
有人说 爱一个人 很幸福
有人说 爱一个人 很痛苦
爱让你牵起他/她的手
爱让你放开他/她的手
爱让你哭了 爱也让你笑了
爱会幸福 被爱也是幸福
在
男生的定义 就是因为我要好好爱他
在
女生的定义 就是被爱幸福就好了
其实
爱情不是单方面
爱情也不是拿来衡量 也衡量不到
而是 爱在心里
心里有他/她 你就会维护对方
你会给他鼓励，给他安慰，给他快乐，给他你的一切，牺牲自己去满足对方
看见对方笑 你会开心
看见对方流泪 你会心痛
心里的爱 很难呈现出来
因为我们是具体 感觉是抽象
明明想这样 可是却做了别的
那个意思 都被误解了
然后 就会被误解下去了了
想让对方 感觉自己的爱 对方却感受不到
每个人的爱定义都不一样
我们要怎样 去判断 真的很难
在人海茫茫中 缘分很难找到
要遇见能让你爱的人 不容易
要遇见你可以爱的人 也很难
有的人 不断的付出 可是还是等不到爱的到来
有的人 在恋爱着 却怀疑对方的爱
你们知道吗 期待爱的人 是多么羡慕 天底下的情侣
他们多羡慕 有人拖起他/她的手 一起走
那一刻 心里是多么的开心 万分的期待 简直无法形容
一生的愿望 就在这一刻 深深让对方 忘记不到 这么美好的一慕
你第一次握着他的手 他/她笑了吗 他/她都愿意和你一起吗？
他/她都不会怀疑 你能不能爱他 会不会爱他/她
可是 没有人知道 原来
爱让你 鼓起勇气 面对看不到前方的路 不管有多困难 要和对方一起走下去
爱让你 提起胸膛 好好的爱对方
爱让你 存在心里
爱的伤害 会让你伤心哭出来
因为 都想把 开心的爱收在心里 把难过忘掉

想爱的 却不能去爱 去给他/她爱
爱的就去做吧 把自己的爱 抓回来
为什么相爱不好好珍惜？
为什么相爱还要互相怀疑？
为什么相爱要给自己别的理由去淹没自己的感情？

记得那天。。。
我们在户外拍摄 突然下起了倾盆大雨
每个人都不停不停的跑去躲雨
走了几步 很乱 很多人 我都看不到你在哪里了 心好乱哦 亲爱的呢？在哪里？
人海茫茫中
突然有个人 不出声的 伸手 紧握着我的手
眼一望 是你 是你
握着我的手
不懂方向何处 就是跑。。跑。。跑。。。
雨中带着我跑。。。。。我们跑得很快，很快
幸福 感动 让我偷偷的在心里哈哈的大笑
可是我却对你毫无表情 把爱收在心里 表达不出来
这一刻
深深感受到 你的每一步 你握着我的每一秒
只想保护着我 把我带到安全的地方
虽然时间很短
可是 我觉得我们走了很漫长的路
每一个脚步 每一个拍子
只有我和你
因为我们的心里都爱着对方
要不然因为爱对方 你不会自然的牵起他/她的手
和你一起走

少少的安慰，鼓励等于激励

都是自己把事情搞砸了
后悔没有用
惟有做好以后的准备
这个时候
我该醒了
做回我要做的东西
积极一点
堕落的样子 会让他更不喜欢
我没有失去他
他也没有失去我
我们都把对方放在心上
先各自忙 自己的东西
当生活放肆 都一致认同
我们还会很好的
因为 他告诉我 他还爱我
因为 我告诉自己 我还爱他
我会听你的
因为 我不想 我们分开
这只是 暂时性 各自忙得生活
我们 还很好的关心对方，谈天说话
挨过了这段日子 以后的我们 相信一定 很幸福。。很幸福！！
我要我们更加的幸福！
亲爱的。。。。

不过哦 还是希望
多主动给通电话我
让我觉得
有时老公仔会多 关心我的事情
那么 我就会以这个少少的鼓励 积极起来
做好。
趁着这个机会。。。 要对自己发誓！
都把自己的冲动，坏脾气，固执，转牛角尖 等改掉！！
因为冲动，坏脾气，固执，转牛角尖
重新做好原本的自己
毕竟
在这次的事里 搞破坏了
把我握折磨到这个地步
我不要！
我要更好！
为了自己 为了你
我会努力。 我会努力。
'Gal 加油！'

想你

我不干写在facebook
怕你看到 觉得我很烦 在逼你将
可是心里想着。。。
最爱的老公仔换成了。。
很难接受
我相信你
有一天你会告诉我
你都在想我。。
爱我
回来了
相爱却要 重新寻找我们的爱 何处
真的 很痛苦
你这么做
我更本 不会放弃
反而 会爱你多一天。
亲爱的，我 爱 你！
其实事情不该发生到这样的。。。是我的错
不是你的错 是我来不及做到
都说啦 给我时间 勇气
要说出来 真的要勇气的。。。
为什么不等我？
我都在努力着的。。。
为什么不给机会我，等我
我会告诉你真相的。。。
我要时间 勇气。。
我输了勇气 一直不敢 坦白说出来
还虚假的 把今天弄成这样。。
看着你自责 我还不该说。。
我。。。。。要怎么说呢。。。

beloved

first time see u cry so badly front of me, tear drop with blood.. my heart really feel pain n pain.... i know u not to leave me.... just need time to re-evaluate our TRUE LOVE...u say u still love me,care me...just not much as deep enough...after busy all ur thing, once day found miss me so much,love me more n more...means u loved me so much... n u will be back to me... u say we r just friend... im im im....i lost a boyfriend but im hv a very good good friend.... i really really feel pain of my heart. dear....i
miss u... remember wat i say..remember wat u say to me too....whatever
we done last night...the whole way... its sweet and its also pain ...
but i ap...preciate it. i had stay strong to watching u leave.
after u leave im regret
im very very regret..... that day i swear i not mean to cry... sincerely
why i never tell u
and because of this... i make u painful n make this decision
sorry my lover
i really regret.... actually that day i lying on bed... i just tired
and u heard my voice like that
ask me' what happen, tell la'
nothing i think la...
im bad lo.... i noisy noisy to wish u pamper me lo
so, i cry to u, wish u pamper me.... i wan face lo...
not tell the true thing and think which is not neccesary thing to suffer u
i regret about it
i regret that i cause our relationship become like this
u not mean bad to me at all
sincerely... i know u busy... but my mind set when home... all negative thing come to me.. is nothing but get something to think think and become bad....
dear.... i misunderstand myself
that not i wan to tell i swear.
i had very suffer since tat job
the daily message are make me suffer a lot a lot
trust me n urself
i wonder why we are fine n suddenly change to be like this
i wish u continuous give the happinest .... u are done in half way...
but becos of me.... i make the bad thing happen recently...
my god... i regret bout it......
why not give me time to brave to tell dear...
why not give me brave to do what i wan to do from my heart??
if can, i will die one time to get back this chance..
tell the true... tell honestly .. i swear i will do that...
just a very good chance to me let him know, not his problem
is me...

想一次，笑一次

都没听到你先开口告诉我说
‘你想我’ ‘你爱我’
每次你真的很想我的时候
你都会打电话给我
或是讯息我
告诉我
‘老婆仔，我好挂住你尔’。。‘gal.... i miss u..'
知道你 在忙 不过你的电话就会让我知道 你想我 不然你就不会打给我
要是做工的时候 你一直打电话给我
我比较的空 所以得空没事做就会 看看电话的wallpaper（我们的照片）
看了就会想起你开心地笑
然后就会 说‘我想你’
有时
闷闷的时候 在地铁里 会拿起电话 看看你有想我 找我吗 不过你在忙 不用紧，我都在你心里陪着
和朋友谈天的时候 每两三句 都会提起你 朋友都觉得 我的男朋友很疼我哦 我就很开心的说 ‘是啊！’哈哈
你给我的快乐 让我呈现出来 幸福的感觉 所以告诉朋友的时候
你是我的骄傲 你是我的最完美了
驾车时 也会想想你 没电话，讯息 你一定在忙吧 都不用紧我知道你在忙
吃饭时 想想你 不晓得你吃得饱吗 有时啦 餐餐的话 就不用吃了 想饱咯 哈哈
睡觉前 都会 看电话里的照片一次 想想我们一起的时候
拍下的开心照片
然后 看累了 就睡了。。
老公仔不喜欢挂在口边 说这些 你会行动让我知道
不过。。 我就是任性。。。偏要问你 。。。好像逼你说将。。
我喜欢你的笑容 所以想你
因为 ‘我都爱着你’
心里的感觉 很自然就会让我笑了
为什么呢
你给我的 快乐和幸福
我们开心的时候 你的笑容 让我想起你 我幸福的偷笑了 ^;^ hehe... i love u hubby.
不过你可能不知道 因为我都没坦白告诉你
下次吧 我们有时间睡觉前。。一定抱着你 告诉老公 好吗
等我。

说了一半的真心话

昨天我哭着 接听你的来电
和你说了一大堆 的话
今天， 听到你的真心话
你好像 知道我在想什么
原来 你知道，也怕我乱想
听到，很开心
但是也因为将 你担心我 好像 远离了一个同事
我知道 我不好
我多心了
老实说 不是因为看到那讯息
我也不会多想的
但是 我要谢谢他
因为这样 我才说出了 这几年来 没说出来的真心话
因为他 我决定告诉 老公的努力 让我幸福
虽然我还没把全部说完 下次有机会的
原来你比我伟大 你可以牺牲你想要的同事 避免我不开心
我觉得 我很没用
不是小气的 却要做到这样明显。。。
原来你比我爱你 更爱我
我真的感觉到了 原来 你是那么的爱我的

我。。。。
我该说吗
我该事实说出来吗
我怕我说了你会更怕我 不要我了
所以我都不敢说 为什么我老实那么的对自己真实感做对抗
我和她谈过后
我听到他说的东西 我好怕 我真的好怕
我不知道该和你说吗 一个eumora 让我疯颠起来将
明明对的， 我却作错的东西
他告诉我 我要尽量静下来
不然每次 都会美好 的反应而破坏了 变成坏事
我怕你会怕我有轻微的精神忧郁而不要我了
怎么办 我该说吗
我很怕 明明爱的，对的而反过来作
以前童年，中学的生活 而残生了我这个习惯
老公。。。 你知道了 会陪我吗？你会怕我吗？
我该告诉你吗？:.< 我怕你担心我。。。 我不要我
然后没有了你尔。。。。 怎么办？？ 怎么办？？
我要如何让你知道，那天我们谈的东西 都是我发自内心的话？虽然我想好好的告诉你
但我又控制不到哭个不停 妈妈骂我的时候 我都特地做将的事 所以。。。我。。不知道啊。。。
我怕你不信我。。。。
我。。我。。。我。。。。 就怕，自己会蹦奎。。。
老公，我要你的力量。。。。
给我你的力量。。。我不想有一天失去了你尔。该说吗？知道了。。那还会体谅我吗？

解释还是报告？

不知道为什么。
我都不喜欢这样。。
问什么 答什么
比如说：我来电，当好他在听（另一通）电话。。
我都会很野心的问 和随谈啊。。
问了过后 你都会回答我 假如是sms,你看到我没回复，你都会打会回来
其实 这感觉有一点不安
可是你好像很乐意 解释 和告诉我 问我怎么啦。。。
但是 我感觉 的你在给我写报告 解释
是你怕 我想多了 不开心
还是 你真的很乐意 的告诉我咧？
真的没有什么 东西 怕我乱想？
这些事 会不会让你觉得我对你没有信心？
希望不会。。。
其实，我希望的是。。。 你会感觉因为怕我乱想而发自内心的告诉我。
我不是要逼到你做到这样
其实。。。
只要你是的告诉我，不管事的也告诉我。。。我都听了就好
我都会没事
我知道最近我的敏感
让你作息不安 好像什么都向我报告
其实我都不是要报告 报告的不开心 其实听报告的也会不开心的咧 感觉都不一样
好像，通电话时，你都会用些事带过 让我知道 我就会开心
这就不一样咯。。。好很多 哈哈
其实， 自然就好。像我不问，你也会告诉我的
我就会很开心 这样，我就知道你 没有东西瞒着我
嗯。。。。
戒指不在手上，真的感觉好空虚。。。
好没有安全感哦。。。 以前我都很少问你将的东西
这星期里面 做了将的东西 我都不是很喜欢
我喜欢的 接到你的电话
你撒娇的说 ‘er,gal 做到很累。。。massage下我。。。'或 'er, gal 今天很忙，有空再谈，:-*-; '
这类型的开头， 然后再说你的事情。。。
我喜欢听你 讲这种故事。^;^

对不起

你说 我不喜欢你的朋友 其实不是 我都有和他们沟通 可是你不知道 为什么？
你说 我不喜欢你的家人 其实不是 我都很想和他们一起 有说有笑 可是你却觉得我不开心 为什么？
你说 我不喜欢这样的你 其实不是 我一天比一天更爱你
你说 你喜欢的我都不喜欢 其实不是 你一直那么以人为 又为什么？
原来 那天 展告诉我说 其实
你们就是 站在自己的立场想 这就错了
你们心里 一致的人为 误导了
你们应该说出来 有话不说出来 真的让人误解的
传达的讯息 就会因此而带过 然后就会被误会了
原来心里想的，杳然对方知道，感觉到的抽象物体 很难
所以，当对方感觉不到的时候 你就要说出口来
我一直认为， 我们一起了这么久 你一定很了解我
为什么还会做令我不开心的事
想了几天 也找展朋友聊了我的情况
才发现到 原来我们都忘了一些事
当初，我们都为了生活而忽略了身边的事情
当吵起来的时候 什么难听的话 都会说出来
然后让自己心里过得舒服
其实 自己不是那个意识
明明就是很爱对方 可是听到这些话 就会在这个吵架的情况下 因为难过，生气 残生错觉
明明可以心静的谈 可是却每次都把事情搞扎
明明很想说爱你 却开口说生气，和讨厌
他告诉我说 要不是 你爱他 你不会为了他 做出这样的改变
他告诉我说 要不是 他爱你 也不会为了你 而变
都因为 大家都爱对方 所以才肯迁就对方 还在一起
明明自己不是想要这样
但是你们自己做的东西 都想看见 对方开心 然后自己开心
用对方的开心 还给自己的开心 不是每个人做得到
想了想~ 那也对哦
其实 你也很疼我 日子久了 却看不到简单的心思
我知道怎么做了
都知道自己做了以前的坏习惯
还不能表现好 我心你要对你说的那句真话
还不能 表达给你知道
笨蛋啦我 哈哈
冷静下来后，看会写给你的讯息
想了想 我真的觉得
哇！！！ 为什么我写的东西那么令人难听
我知道你一定 不开心了
但是你都不会发 我脾气
老公，突然觉得 你很man
这一杀哪我才发觉
原来不是我很爱很爱你
而是原来你是那么爱我的
我脾气将臭 你都包容那个我
而我还。。。。
所以哦。。。
我知道错了
你打电话来的时候。。
说了两句那样
我都原谅你了
不过还 爱面子的说
‘那，没有下次。。。’
原来我那么硬劲
死都不肯 把温柔那面给你看到
害羞了。。。
我很笨哦？

im sitting here
nothing in my mind
ya... we have some argue just now
but before u temper...i wish to talk to u
i wish to tell u
ya even im not happy once i saw u send those message
but, this few days
i think probably what i gonna tell u when i see u this coming Saturday
a lot of thing i wan to say actually
but u cut off the line..
u say.. u don like to talk those thing in phone
u always ask me wait u back to talk face to face

i would like to tell u all this:
even we have some argument
but my heart are with u
because i love u
im argue for it
just wish u know
what i care
u always tell me, u dont know what think
when im sad /unhappy unless im tell u
because u are not beside me
but when i trying to tell u
i make u felt u r not good at all
it is my failure to sending u a wrong message?
every time after we argue something
after we be fine
i always thinking back
the memories u gave me
u bring me go malacca n langkawi ( the sweetest moment u gave me)
u gave me surprise come back from johor
u cook a good meal for me
looking at u doing some thing for me
happy to heard u say ' now, once i login facebook, i will visit ur page very first time'
happy to heard u say u missing me ( from ur heart)
it is very warm for me
u tot i wan u to tell me anytime any seconds
no no no... i wish to heard when u r..
and from ur heart..
how wonderful i wish to be
every time we argue
u will hugging me tied and
tell me sincerely
''dear, dont sad or cry.. u sad i will sad too,if u cry and i will cry too.
look at me...(give me a warm kiss until let me feel it)''
and u ask me back ,u know y im kissing u just now?
''because i love u,do u feel it?''
and u talk to me ( i believe all this u will do it from ur heart )
such simple... tat i wan...
unfortunately , everytime we argue, u r not with me
because of this
i blame on u not care me
i blame on u bother me
i blame on u are not captivate me etc... ... ... ... ...
ya i bad
because im not good in control my emotion
dear.. give me time
i dont wan because of my problem, cause u lost confidence to me
i dont wan because of my problem, u tot u are bad, not enough good
give me time... i will learn to control it...
trust urself
u r good, just me bad

我一定要做到

一想到
我的愿望 就快可以实现了！！！！
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈阿哈哈哈。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。^;^
爱我的人 我爱的老公 一起和我在海边度过
哇。。。。。。。 想起来 我都偷偷在笑
不过老公都不知道。。哈哈 真的好期待
老公 谢谢你给我幸福的爱
一年前准备 的心细
我看到了 你的努力 我深深感受到了。。
嘻嘻。。。
你好榜哦
好吧。。
那一天，我一定要加油
把最真的一幕让你看见 让你知道
我收到了 你的爱意 是真的 你给我的爱
都在发光发热 所以 想起你为我做过的事
让我 好开心
等我哦 我会在生日的那天
让你知道 我收到了你给我的幸福
我们会好好的 永远不分开
都会在一起 如果没有了你
我真的不知该怎么办
给我你的爱。922...等我。。
我要做一个很重要爱的告白
我要让全世界都知道， 整个海洋，整个沙滩
高声宣布
天空，星星，海洋，沙滩 还有你作证

''李添来，亲爱的老公仔。你的爱 我收到了！！我真的幸福着了。。。，你可以绝续给我这样的幸福吗？？！！我非要不可！！你要爱我，就因为你的爱，让我爱你的''

老公仔，等我！！！等我存起这勇气告诉你.
一定会很自豪的。 我一定要告诉你。我一定要告诉你。我一定要告诉你！！！！！
一定要等我！！一定要等我！！！922一定会是我勇气最佳的一天！！！
因为我一直都欠你这一个告白
所以你对我没有信心
觉得自己不好
可以一次还你200%/100%的信心，好吗？

my busy man

dear...
i know u busy with ur thing, ur working life
i trying not sms u often
wish u concentrate on working
but i know u will call me when u feel free
cos i know u love me
hehe
ya.. i love u too hubby.
erm... i know this thing... when busy .. hard to missing me la
actually is impossible
but when u free... ( i remember what u say : i will login fb, first page i will take a look of ur page)
wahhhhhh
my dear my dear...my lovely dear
u know this action really show u missing me...
otherwise u wont take a look even just 1 second
i know u nervous bout me...
ya.. i found ur love to me...
hehe.. thanks..
hubby is great actually
u found the way to express ur love to me now
but i still felt im failure to do it
cos i still cant say all the true feeling from heart to u
one day
i will wait u back later
find a good good time, venue
just both of us...
i tell u this 'true word from heart'
wait me...k?
hehe... how i wish it s come to me tomorow
tell u all this nice moment
and i guess u will be know, what i mean man of u now
im sure u will happy
and our relationship getting more strong than before
actually i felt is better than before 200& over
just sometime im so emotional break down the good thing
cos im temper , i not control my emotion well
sorry dear..
i wish u felt im not..
i dont wan this 'bad express' cause us will happen ..one day
trust me
u r my man
u r a great man
u r my excellent man now
ya. only u are man now.
hehe.. hehe .. hehe..
faster faster, wait u back... i gonna tell u all this.....
dear.. i love u..:-*-; ^;^

家个有钱的人

每个女孩 都希望自己嫁个好老公
可以的话 我也很想
朋友，同学，邻居，亲人
都会对我说
嫁个有钱 又好的老公就最好
我也很想
自问自己 没有这给这个命水
所以我最想的 就是以我为中心的男朋友
不管什么 都以我为先
这个 都是一直我要的男朋友的基本条件
小时候 我是家里的 大小姐 要什么 就有什么
但是 妹妹的出现 却分薄了 爸妈给我的关怀
其实 我真的和难过 所以 我不疼妹妹 甚至讨厌他
知道上中学 一直很想像普通人一样 拍拖
所以 我告诉自己 我的男朋友一定要很疼很疼我的
你不是不疼我 但是我要的疼爱 比你现在给的是更多
我不介意 你不是家境富有
我不介意 驾车代步的是我
更不介意 吃白米粥
但是！
我很在意 你会对我多好？
你会用你多少的 ‘心’和我说话
你会用你多少的 ‘惊喜’填满我的喜悦
你会用你多少的 ‘空间’装载我的一言一语
你会用你多少的 ‘避免’不让我伤心难过
你会用你多少的 ‘力量’把我抱在怀里
你会用你多少的 ‘魔力’去想我在想什么
你会用你多少的 ‘精力’去为我承担我的包裹
你会用你多少的 ‘真诚’告诉我 每时每刻 都会想我 爱着我 。。等等。。等等
当然我知道 这一切都是用心去感受 而不是口头上的
但是 如果你的心 如此心细连篇，我肯定也感觉到
我还在连接中。。。。。因为每次接收到了 被别的事情打断了
我又尽量再连接 谁料到发送中被中断的。。
所以 我一直在等我要的讯息
期望有一天开始 我不会接受中途再中断！
心里爱着我 就爱我吧
我都知道 你爱我的
可是 每次 我却否认你
明明我知道 我决定 可是开口说反话
我特地 做到这样
知道你一定认为 你自己不好 给我不开心
其实哦。。
老公，不是的。。。。
你都是很棒的
你这一年来 都很疼我 我感觉得到的
不过 都是我爱面子拉
疼的，还说你不疼
很希望 很希望 你都会看到
我在这里的真心话
我怕有一天应为 我爱的面子 破坏了你对我的信心
不要不要
你要看到。听到。我努力丢下爱脸。。。
很想很想 告诉你 你给了我很多的快乐，喜悦
所以 才会一天一天更爱你的
我发誓 这都是真的
罗有骗意 我出街给车车碰到，驾车给人撞扁
你让我觉得幸福了。。 ^;^ ^;^ ^;^ ^;^ ^;^ ^;^

开心

老公假期鲁
他都说会回来陪了我几天
看见老公笑
我都会笑
虽然被些小事
高扎了 我其实不要发脾气拉
可是看见你对我做的事
很快我就不记得拉
是自己无聊 想多了 有发作罢了
对不起 其实都不是那个意思
就是 我好坏蛋
知道老公要问 文冬
我好想也一起回
可是 要照顾妈妈
帮我涂了 我喜欢的purple colour
哈哈。。。我都很喜欢
老公 你都记得我要这颜色
我真的很开心
原来你是那么的疼我了
可是哦 却开不了口 表达这个爱意
我很笨哦？
不出声 不代表我不喜欢 只是我害羞不说出口
不然下次 你不经张我么
哈哈 。。。 我真笨。
好甜蜜。。。。虽然我睹着住嘴陪你涂漆，可是哦
我的心 是在哈哈笑的。。。 不过就是给你苦瓜脸
对不起啦。。。。下次我会好好表达我真真的爱意给你好吗？
等我。。。哈哈

人生攻击

当初的约定 没说清楚
做好了的东西
可是 给赖帐 还受到人生攻击 这些话 真的很难听
然后 引起不必要的纠纷
根本还没谈 就已经给人家沙到一脸水
我告诉自己 冷静点 冷静点
要顾全大局 不要搞炸事情

所以 在电话 我也不出声
因为牵连的人和事太多了
所以 真的不晓得说什么
公说公有理 婆说婆有理
你有你的说 我有我的说
根本解决不了问题

金钱换回来的侮辱
真的让我接受不到
很难过。。 很难过。。。
dear,你在忙 在忙考试出题的事
所以， 自己毅力承担
部落各陪伴我 朋友安慰我
谢谢你们 突然觉得好安慰。

我也会想念你

不晓得 为什么
虽然近近的
但是 心里面
忠是会想念 你
今天起床
好像见到你
很渴望 我们可以快点
可以一起在krabi。。。
我们的假期。。。。
期待黄昏 的时分 和你一起漫步
期待傍晚 的到来 和你一起用餐
期待夜晚 的到来 和你一起躺在沙滩 数星星
我期待 浪漫的回忆
因为 回忆里面 永远 只有我和你 最甜蜜
我的愿望 可以实现了！！！！
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈阿哈哈哈。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。^;^
爱我的人 我爱的老公 一起和我在海边度过
哇。。。。。。。 想起来 我都偷偷在笑
不过老公都不知道。。哈哈 真的好期待
老公 谢谢你给我幸福的爱
一年前准备 的心细
我看到了 你的努力 我深深感受到了。。
嘻嘻。。。
你好榜哦
好吧。。
那一天，我一定要加油
把最真的一幕让你看见 让你知道
你受到了 你的爱意 是真的 你给我的爱
都在发光发热 所以 想起你为我做过的事
让我 好开心
等我哦 我会在生日的那天
让你知道 我受到了你给我的幸福
我们会好好的 永远不分开
都会在一起 如果没有了你
我真的不知该怎么办
给我你的爱。922...等我。。
我要做一个很重要的表白
我要让全世界都知道， 整个海洋，整个沙滩
高声宣布
天空，海洋，沙滩 作证
''李添来，你的爱 我收到了！我幸福着了。。。，你可以绝续给我这样的幸福吗？？！！我非要不可！！你要爱我，就因为你的爱，让我爱你的''
老公，等我！！！等我存起这勇气告诉你.
一定会很自豪的。 我一定要告诉你。我一定要告诉你。我一定要告诉你！！！！！

Burning!!!

i'm rushing time to pass up my assignment yesterday
my cd room was couldnt burn the soft copy
and
im trying to on his pc
its not work
and im rushing to my friend house to burn the soft copy to cd.
i calling him on the way
whose know
i just trying to tell
then KENA SHOOT by him
WHAT THE FUCK BULLSHIT MAN
NO ONE TOUCH ON UR LAPTOP
EVEN I TRYING TO ON,
IT'S ALREADY NOT WORK!!!!!
DON'T TRY TO WRONGED ME!!!!!
NO BODY WAN TO USE UR LAPTOP
RUSHING ALL THE DOCUMENT N FINANCIAL REPORT
AND DO ALL THE HOUSE WORK
TELL U , AND SCOLD ME
WHAT THE HELL!!!! BULLSHIT MAN!!!!
WHEN NEED HELP, ASK FROM ME,
WHEN ANYTHING BLAME ON ME~~
BRAINLESS!!!

失眠

现在是早上五点
睡着睡着
脚麻痹所以醒了
回想起。。。。。
不知道 就是生气了
就算是 昨晚说话大声了
你可以告诉我说
都夜了，你就降低声量吧
我拿着买了给你的食物 给你吃
你用那种很无奈的表情
不过看这你睡觉得样子
就气消了 看到你睡倒很甜
哈哈。。 好可爱
看你睡到流口水
我醒过来了 坐在电脑前
你都不知道 你一定很好睡
哈哈。。。
可以看着你睡觉 我突然觉得我好幸福
可以和爱人 爱我的人 一起睡觉觉。。
来。。抱抱。。 要关机 睡了。。。哈哈 甜蜜。
你的爱 我收到了
你的爱 让我更爱你多些了
老公。。。我来了！！
哈哈哈哈

利用价值

终觉得

身边的人

不停的在利用自己

需要你的时候

总是洪自己

不需要自己的时候

就完全看不到自己

男男女女

都一样

好了！够了！

我经不起 那种伤害

因为，我也是 人心肉做的

有感觉，有感情的

不要在我身上再想得到什么好处

这是最后一次

也就是没有下一次了

想要的，就找别的吧。

因为我不是你的玩具。

问心~ 我没有亏待过你。

当我朋友就不该这么坏要求啦！！ 我男朋友会不喜欢的。过分，我不要和你好了！！

A Great day and night

A friday night,

as usual, i won't be stay at home

no matter how

i will go out

my heart also 'fly' to outside

i went to Look Out Point at midnight

with dear, bro and bro friend

have a nice chat ~ and romantic night

we have a nice seat facing a nice kl view at all

the next morning, me accompany dearest went to klcc isetan

getting new formal cloths

we end our day with a high tea ( ice cream) in New Zealand

换换个新的

乌黑的头发

没有了

因为 今天去了理发店

汤头发，和燃头发。

虽然 染的颜色

不是那么 理所想的

不过 至少还是 有个

新形象！

~Sweet~

a breakfast

a lunch

a dinner

a night

a hug

a kiss

a moment that we're together

is make me

smile

laugh

simply can say that

im happy with it

its nice enough.

Another way

since i saw that posted

i know i should not be that

it will hurt u if continuous like this

so, i decide to get another way

which is try to ignore it...

Speechless

during the phone conversation....

what u tell

i just say 'oh'

nothing else i can say

its doesn't mean i not support u at all

but u always tot im was thinking like that

how i gonna prove that i'm not exactly?

shouldn't questionnaire, i stopped to ask

though u will feel more comfortable for it

i not to comment on it, because i felt my comment is not important you

it is not the point i not to support u,

is u to feel that im not support u actually

therefore , my supporting is useless for u

i'm admit that i not support u at beginning, but not now

because u spent a lot of time in volleyball

when come to final , i advise u don't spent so much time in volleyball

and concentrate in ur thesis

do u listen a real advise from me?

what happen finally? u spent another time to redo it.

what else i gonna to say again?

u always think that i 'HATE' volleyball, exercise etc

u are keep all those volleyball news from me

is not i hate on it,but is u let it far from me.

do think that i'm wont listen to u at all???

do i?

i do like u advise me to do so sometime

what u advise me to me, i try to do as i can so far.....

tired to justified anymore~

i just wish to know ~

what are u really know about me? about my life?

sometime, u spent for few days with me

and we just hang out for fun... etc

do u really think i wan that everyday??

answer NO!

what i want...

is a life style together all the time

go out when have a good mood wan to out....

other couples are staying together before plan for their future

but we always split into 2 place....

meet also gonna find a date, a free time

i gonna wait until u free to be with me

therefore, the time i spent with u , only hang out when we meet every time

sincerely, i tired about that.i wish we also can stay at home... chit chat together... bed talk etc..

This Moments

Ya, i had in lazy mode since 2 month ago

time always went us fast

i look at at the calendar

few days more is came to May 2010

few more months later i gonna sit for final

as usual

me still surf net like free i do

its shouldn't be

suddenly....

that's something wake up me

i gonna work hard for it

this moment quite busy with all the assignment

later on, finish i will have the break term for 2 weeks

after come back from the break term

sally need in some changes for it...

not only start after it

but do little start on now

looking for more, learn for more, improve for more

motivate more..

that's was my target before!

i shall start on this second!

i can do IT!

My convocation

Ya...

finally, this day had coming to me

which is my Convocation heal on 25th April 2010

it was waited for 5 month time

my parent was happy with it

there will be more appreciated if mother could attend my Convo

unfortunately she is heavy sick and couldn't be in University with me

by the way, i was so wish another Convo for the time coming soon

and then, i need to come out from study life and work hard for my life time

~Freedom of study and work hard for life~

Sepang Gold Coast

im went to Sepang Gold Coast yesterday with my friend

the situation almost same as what i dream few days ago

there have a nice view at all

once im see the beach...

im really really so happy so happy

that's feeling was great enough~ ^;^

but a call, make my mood going down

because i didnt tell roy that i go out with my friend earlier

when he asking me

i really dont know how to answer

but finally i told i go with my friend.

not effected so much at all

the view, the people, the beach,

seem like u and me ( the dream i dream )

the dream that u bring me some where else

we're walking at the beach.....

we're enjoying the view....

take some photo....

just character had change...

but i still very enjoy

listening song while taking the photo...

~~~~ nice ~~~~~

here my photograph took yesterday

Dream a dream

i dream a dream

i meet u in the dream

i was forgot the beginning part

but the most to make me remembered was

u bring me to go a very beautiful place

which is a beautiful beach

there is a lot people there at that moment

you are talking to me

walking on the beach with me

and take few shoot of this nature

and we're very enjoying

specifically the moment we having the watching starts in the sky

that's feeling is really great enough.

i close my eye and feel the wind is touching me...

the sea is singing to me...

once i open my eye

only i realised

i dream a dream

the moment is short, but it nice even just a dream.

like what i wish for long long long time...

i wish a have a memorable birthday at beach...

and do a favor to surprising me and i will brave to give u a 100% suprise too... wait me my dear hubby

i'm looking at it

when my dream will come true?

possible? keep waiting.....

Financial Problem

i have some financial problem recently

convocation, repairing of car, phone bill, utilities bill, expense some more, borrow money to my brother...

wah........ headache

who gonna help me?

who gonna borrow money to me to settle all those thing at this moment?

Arhhhhhhhh

Silent better than talk sometime

when i try to tell

you think that i non stop giving the reason

coincidentally happening

sometime really wish to listen to u

dinner with you and chat to u

but timing is crash

and then i will leave it and

spending time with myself

do i so bad?

i felt im so bad suddenly

im making my friend unhappy

making my friend sad

even will angry me...

sorry my friend.

Sorry......

That's all my false.

Really SorrY. :(

Stay Silent

yesterday still laugh happily
but today shut down the happy mood without reason
i wish to talk with some one
but i guess he is busy
i not mean to disturb
but i wish only feel free and talk to me
but when the time is free for u
i not to tell and talk to anyone
that moment, i just wish to stay alone
keeping plain in my mind
calm down my mind and rest rest and rest...
go and go
leave and leave me
some time, stay alone is enjoyable
so far, i also will appreciate
u willing share ur time with me at the moment
its ENOUGH.
some time no need to talk
may b just through those
word/
smile/
laugh/
joke/
warm hug/
laying on ur shoulder
sweet kiss on face
hand holding
funny face
an expression of ur's
wake up me from than eveyrthing even moody face
i will be happy again.
do it simple , not to complicated is a good reward for me.
^;^
because, see u Happy, Im HAPPIEST.

why U make it complicated?

SHE is try to apologize to u
but u are not acceptance and doing some complaining
u are post to the facebook wall which shown u still angry
but she is say nothing in facebook
and u r not to forgive HER
i had advice u, thing that had pass
just let it pass and forgive HER once SHE had apologize to u
SHE is keep a step to say sorry to u
i felt that u should say sorry to her too
might some action u make her unhappy too but u never realised
i no ideal with why u cant forgive HER
while she is forgive u and be the first to try to talk to u
why still 'small gas' and why dont let it pass and forgive n forget it???
i have no ideal with all
I JUST DO NOT WISH EITHER ONE OF U, TALK AGAIN ABOUT THIS TOPIC AGAIN


both are my friend
what i can do?
i shall keep quite and do not say anything
to make it more complicated

Buzy & Tired CNY but HaPpY enough

i had a very nice new year with u guys....
a very fun cny and tired & busy
organised the gathering night dinner with my friend
have a great night with all of ur
i might can rush to attend all the activity that ur havebut i try my best to come n join ur...
its really happy that see u come to my house and call me out
even a friend long long long time no see each other
but i have this chance to meet up u all ( wah chai, shyan, monkey , kok leong etc)
really HAPPY~
even i have to daily rush from kl and bentongbut it worth to me do that as long as see all of u , friend.i pround with u all happy cny to all of u.. my dear friend

wish that we have it again next year.friendship forever!!! ^;^

**Conflict**

that is too much conflict in between
a question never ask from face to face
people had judged u so many thing n keep comment
yes, thing keep changing
but do u keep keeping the thing changing rotation ?

a feeling ignore by friend
its always make people moody
no matter its happen on others or our self
but do u felt it without noticed?

silent do not mean nothing at all
but when people try to say or telling
fact will hurt to heard it
excuse and argument will be happen
once not acceptance

a conflict will keep inside once its never settled
don't blame of people come first
if you're do not like people blame on u
u wan people accept u
u need to accept people first

a good relationship
always built up with a
good communication, a respective
without a good communication skill
people not interesting listen what are u talking about
without respect to each other
that is no point to continue anything & everthing

appreciate whatever u have
otherwise u will be regret if u lost it once day
might not everything that u can be get in money

when u lost ur love, u can get it again
when u lost ur family, ur friend
u wont' get them again in ur life

when we in a working environment, u will feel that ur friend getting lost to contact each others due to busy work...and u will found that friend is important to u at this time. its not easy could be friend.

we should be grad and appreciate that
we can know each other
meet each other

Day with ur Accompanion

dear is work for Tiger Beer At Tesco Selayang this 2 week
he is staying with me at kl house
^;^ every morning
once i open my eye, i will see u sleep beside me...
looking at ur sleep face, its funny .. hahaha
and how is gonna be for my life without working and study
this 2 week?
HuH!!! totally is relax me even though its a bit to boring life..
clean up kl house daily...
wah... do it a bit every day
few day again is CNY...
now kl house is clean , neat and fresh...
i love this feeling.
feel comfortable when home.
hahahaha......
and i happy can be dinner or supper with u
cos, u will listen to me what im gonna to tell
or u will share with me about urs.
^;^ i know u had very tired to working
so that i will doing a facial mask for u..
and u r very enjoy bout it and sleep while i doing the facial mask for u.

A noon with Baby~

if free today
i go to my neighbour house
when i was free....
i will visit her and his cute and naughty baby
i playing with him and take some capture with him....
i like to see his smiling...
there is happy...
nothing worry...
now he is getting 6 to 7 month
he is explore at home with his baby car
and his mother is busy to take a look of him
scare he is catch some small thing into his mouth
well...
after home, i had create a video clip for him as his present for grandmo n grandpa this CNY.
i wish his relative is happy with him.. hehe

5th Year Anniversary with u

time had been wake up me
5 year ?
its that short?
its that long?
but we have it together for 5 year
no matter its
day or night
happy or sad
suffer or relax
cry or laugh
5 year ..
i never realised that we can be for 5 year
the happy feeling to making this video
im really happy with it..
dont know... how is hubby responce once view it..
hehe...
i wish i can touch his heart
wish hubby to know...
i love u most..
u r my great man even i also temper to u say u bad...
hehe...^;^ i love U, my lovely hubby.
anyway ....
share u this

2 days to go

2 days to go
we're having the 5th anniversary year
we had our relationship far away for 4 1/2 year
and now we stay together
time always passed us fast
think back the moment
im still remember u told me
u will leave me and study in Johor UTM for 4 year
i guess ...
we wont stay our relationship
but
thing always hard to guess
until now
we still together
and we will have the 6th Valentine Day this year

==*==*==*==*==*==*==*
Happy 5th Anniversary !!
==*==*==*==*==*==*==*

**'-' ' ':. ../'' * * *,
* * Roy * *
**** ****
***** & ****
**** *****
** Sally **
******
***
*

现实和假象

不知道什么时候
何时 开始 出现了你
你每说的一句
我都记进脑里
然后开始幻想 再幻想
他的影子 告诉了我
让我知道 原来这是假像
我 生活在现实里 也存在假像里
幻想不断让我沉迷 着
现实也在呼唤着我
不舍得 因为沉迷了
还能怎么说
选择会困扰我
抛 弃选择
我背叛了我
也淹没自我
最后 最后只能说 抱歉

陌生~

due the to reason repair & upgrade my laptop

roy n me went to lawyat plaza today

we're taking the lift to going up

when the lift door is open

i see a guy which big size body wearing a dark blue shirt

im see his face clearly

its him~my ex !!

im looking at him short while

im step out of the lift

and he is going into the life

our shadow is pass by each other

we know each other

but we doesn't say even a 'hai'

roy is following behind me

im asking roy, do u see him

roy answered me say :''no. what's that, who's tat?''

i tell him :'' i see my ex just now.''

roy is supprise :'ya meh??never see anyone, may b such a big size, cant recognised him.''

after that, we continue our.

what in my mind ...

no memories...

do any memorised?

answer :'no' i couldn't get it.

^;^

i think is a good news for me.

now i realise, i forget the passed in early time.

Hahaha~

what i wish we can be a friend again

forget the pass n get a new friend

i don't care about the passed

because

i know u are the one in my life since we dated~ dear. ^;^

A Saturday

Today i had dated vivien shopping looking for the CNY cloth. I'm never realized my god bro called me and date me for lunch. Therefore i make it date together 3 of us. We have a very funny joke in d car. We non stop kidding even we're shopping. Its funny and relax me. I really like to hang out like in a small gang. Even though just 3 of us, but its enough and easy to communicate each other.. We have our first meal in fast food restaurant which is KFC. We're in shopping mood after full, following by collect my laptop at lawyat and final destination at Pavilion. We' re so good in mood when hear the NY song. We're sing together, and have few move dance together!! Hahahaha~ i love this Feeling~~ Specially me! i really do! once i heard the CNY song... im really HapPy ! ^;^ That is a signal before celebrate the CNY. Since im kids, my mom will buy all the CNY song CD to us during NY... and listen the song once we feel free... the mood to waiting the CNY always be with me~i LOVE CNY !

When u be with me

my mind is keep '0' when u be with me

nothing other else in my mind

only the life with u

we have this few day to stay together...

we had a shopping day....

enjoy our tea in lovely place starbucks,

we have our dinner at cheras, tmn billion steak house

and we have our ending at Look Out Point

we enjoy the view together

listening the song ...

feeling is great enough

even u not talk much to me

but its enough for me

as long as u accompany me

in my days...

headache

my laptop occur a serious problem....
my brother in hometown now....
roy also the same
who i gonna ask for help?
finnaly i ask my friend to help me..
but still could not fix it...
Arh.... ... ... ... ... ...
the life without internet is such boring

Guessing

i saw the wall post. i guessing they might break up.
i not sure about it
but what i can say ......
its might be take time to let u forget her
but who doesn't have those experience?
its sad, a lot of question ( why ? ) ,even u r sacrifice a lot for her etc...
thing always keep changing in our life
asking why for the pass is doesn't work in ur future
but i believe TIME can cure u sooner
i remember my passed...
i do
how sad am i

i was thinking like this during the passed........
u r leave me alone and u start with her no longer after me
tat time, u r not care bout me and find ur happiest with her
u use a sadness of a people to change ur happiest at d same time
i believe one day....
all those thing will be return to u...
how deep u hurt people, u will get it back
thing always do fair
its doesn't matter
it a passed for me

hereby i should say thank for u!
because of u, i learn to be independent!
i learn to be strong!
im doesn't felt that im a loser but a winner
because, i stand up and cheer up myself in my sadness
its hurt, its hard.... but i tries
and nowadays , its become my history.

and because of u,
i meet him. ^;6

一个早上，一个下午

今天起床后，洗刷完毕，我就上网找GSC戏院的电话，我试打过去希望他们能帮我个忙，帮我找找是否我的记忆卡留下在座位了。然后，傻傻我就开着车都去Foodcourt，去那里找一趟。我知道找回的机会是非常的低。可是，我都做最后的尽力去找。不知道，为什么自己那么的粗心。平时的我，这些重要的东西，我都会好好的收好。既然会弄掉了，平时我最躁急的东西. 真的很好笑！当我弄不见了。我告诉你的时候，我知道你也一样不开心。我在电话听到你的声音。。。。。 我好心酸。

或许像朋友说的吧。。“你最近受了什么刺激？” 连朋友都觉得奇怪，为什么最近我那么粗口？他们一直都不问我。可是，就连一个少见面交谈的朋友都对我这么说的时候。他叫醒了我的脑袋！为什么这问题会出自在我身上呢？？我不知道为什么。我还在他面前否认，我用借口去埋没一切。我不想知道，不想去想。就听着歌，赖在床上。。。。睡着了。

粗心大意

i hang out with friend
i facing the problem of my memory card
i formatted it and need to recovery the picture inside
i asking my friend do it for me
i bring the memory card going out today
the picture is recovered
tot to keep back the memory card into camera
after had my bath when i was home
i searching the card in my bag
i couldn't find it ....
!@#$%^&*()_+!@#!$$#^%$&^%*
i guess its put some where else....
im keep finding it...
!@#$%^&*!@$#!@$
its not inside my Bag!!!
Shit! i Lost my slr camera memory card....
Arhh......sad n moody.
:< how come today so careless ????
what happen today??
and
my friend is asking me...
why im so rude???
my mind is suddenly wake up!!!!
yes! what happen to me actually???
there is no answer to myself too...

What is happening to myself ?????

!@#$%^&*()_+

started get into confuse
thinking what in my mind
but i'm couldn't get it

started lost the control
its telling cant be happen
but im unable to control it

started to thinking of
its should not be
but it out of control

started to waiting
its no reason why doing so
but im keep going on

started to trying
its impossible
but still trying

started to have that life
its relax
but lost of something

started to have a changed
its a good tried
but it might not the result as u though

started to realised its a fake imagination
its a kind of day dream
but still imagine of it.

token

started to believe and trust
its might a fool on it
but in blur mode to believe it

no confidence to take such risk
so, still step on it and never move.

=Done=

a Digi Roadshow at 1Utama had get done
i had spent 5 fays with digi promoter from 30dec-3jan 2010
stand for 5 days.
my leg is tired and extremely sleepy
but once im home....
on my laptop
and facing with my laptop
all the tired feeling is leave me away...
hehe

不知如何说起好

今天。。。
哎。。。
我知道你是想为了她的安全
才带她一起回
但是，你完全没有交代好
一切的行中，情况。。
真的没有责任感。
我的家人问起。。。
我真的很矛盾。。。
除了生气，骂你一顿
我真的不知还有什么好说！
虽然，小事一幢。
即使，你安排妥当，一旦问题出现
一切的美意都会被踏到0%
然后，就会有指责！

凌晨快一点了
现在妹妹还在回家的路途中。。。